I Got a Feeling

I thought that I was going to get on here and rant and complain.... but I just really can't find those fighting words.

I thank God for another lesson learned. I thank God for letting me listen to my instincts for once and not give up on myself.

And I even thank you, jerk. For a short time I was happy and although it wasn't real, it helped! I feel better, I feel good and I feel strong. I feel sorry as well, but all I can do is hope for the best for your situation.

As for me, I'm back on track to fixing my life and getting somewhere. And it's time to kick it into high gear! I applied for school today! I'm so excited to go back. I'm really going to do it this time, nothing is going to stop me. That 5 year plan.... ohh it's happening. :)

Girls, trust your gut. Even if what you're doing feels great, if you have that one little ounce of "weirdness"....trust it! :)

Psalm 121:

2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

<3

Fresh out of Bible Study.

Ephesians 22 Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord. 23 For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the saviour of the body. 24 Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing.


25 Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it; 26 That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word, 27 That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish. 28 So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself. 29 For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as the Lord the church: 30 For we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones. 31 For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh. 32 This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the church. 33 Nevertheless let every one of you in particular so love his wife even as himself; and the wife see that she reverence her husband.

This is what happens when I leave work early!!

Sooo, I left early for a doctor appointment yesterday....and LOOK what I missed!!!!!


That's right, that's Mr P Diddy himself! He came to us to introduce his new vodka Ciroc. I can't believe I missed it!! :(

I took care of that though!!!





;) Happy Friday!!!

Because I can't sleep...thinking about tomorrow!!

Dear Maddie Michelle

I cannot believe you start Kindergarten tomorrow!!! I clearly remember holding you when we first brought you home from the hospital and crying because I thought about how fast time is going to fly, and you will soon be 5 years old and in school. And here it is....your big day!!



You are the most amazing person I have ever met. Everything about you amazes me and makes me so proud! You are so smart and so pretty. You are the sweetest little girl! Last night when I was sick, I was sooo lucky to have you there to take care of me. You have such a loving heart and I admire that about you. You are the best big sister! No matter what Kenna does, you are so gentle and understanding with her. You have the patience that I pray for.

We have been through alot together in your big 5 years....and I just hope you know that I have done everything I can to give you the best that I can. I don't know what I would have done without you throughout everything! We make an awesome team, and you keep me going! :)



I am so proud of you and can't wait to hear all about your first day of school. I won't lie, I'm TERRIFIED!!! I wish I could keep you in my little bubble forever!!! But it's time for you to start your long and exciting and sometimes tough educational career, and I know you will succeed!! You are so strong and oh so smart! You will do great things! Things won't always be easy, but know that your family is behind you and here for you no matter what! And never forget what you always tell me... God is bigger than anything, and loves you more than anyone!!! You will be just fine! :)

I love you and your sister more than life itself! I know that as you two grow she will look up to you, and you'll be a great role model! You already have such a good head on your shoulders!



Good luck at school. This is the beginning of something wonderful, and I can't wait for your journey to start!



I love you Maddie Bear!

<3 Love, Mama

Madison's Big Day: Part 1

Today Madison (kinda) started school!!! I say "kinda" because her REAL first day is Wednesday, but today Tim dropped her off at the before/after school program so that she can get to used to it before her big day. She's just so grown up!!!


I didn't get to be there today to drop her off because I'm taking Wednesday off instead for her actual first day, so I was bummed I missed it! But her daddy did a good job and gave me the run down on how it all went. He said she was really strong and didn't cry like we thought she would, but that he could tell she was so nervous because she wouldn't stop talking! lol




[[ daddy did her hair :) ]]

I'm so worried about her but I'm trying to just relax. I can't believe my baby is growing up!!! :(