This is what happens when I leave work early!!

Sooo, I left early for a doctor appointment yesterday....and LOOK what I missed!!!!!


That's right, that's Mr P Diddy himself! He came to us to introduce his new vodka Ciroc. I can't believe I missed it!! :(

I took care of that though!!!





;) Happy Friday!!!

Because I can't sleep...thinking about tomorrow!!

Dear Maddie Michelle

I cannot believe you start Kindergarten tomorrow!!! I clearly remember holding you when we first brought you home from the hospital and crying because I thought about how fast time is going to fly, and you will soon be 5 years old and in school. And here it is....your big day!!



You are the most amazing person I have ever met. Everything about you amazes me and makes me so proud! You are so smart and so pretty. You are the sweetest little girl! Last night when I was sick, I was sooo lucky to have you there to take care of me. You have such a loving heart and I admire that about you. You are the best big sister! No matter what Kenna does, you are so gentle and understanding with her. You have the patience that I pray for.

We have been through alot together in your big 5 years....and I just hope you know that I have done everything I can to give you the best that I can. I don't know what I would have done without you throughout everything! We make an awesome team, and you keep me going! :)



I am so proud of you and can't wait to hear all about your first day of school. I won't lie, I'm TERRIFIED!!! I wish I could keep you in my little bubble forever!!! But it's time for you to start your long and exciting and sometimes tough educational career, and I know you will succeed!! You are so strong and oh so smart! You will do great things! Things won't always be easy, but know that your family is behind you and here for you no matter what! And never forget what you always tell me... God is bigger than anything, and loves you more than anyone!!! You will be just fine! :)

I love you and your sister more than life itself! I know that as you two grow she will look up to you, and you'll be a great role model! You already have such a good head on your shoulders!



Good luck at school. This is the beginning of something wonderful, and I can't wait for your journey to start!



I love you Maddie Bear!

<3 Love, Mama

Madison's Big Day: Part 1

Today Madison (kinda) started school!!! I say "kinda" because her REAL first day is Wednesday, but today Tim dropped her off at the before/after school program so that she can get to used to it before her big day. She's just so grown up!!!


I didn't get to be there today to drop her off because I'm taking Wednesday off instead for her actual first day, so I was bummed I missed it! But her daddy did a good job and gave me the run down on how it all went. He said she was really strong and didn't cry like we thought she would, but that he could tell she was so nervous because she wouldn't stop talking! lol




[[ daddy did her hair :) ]]

I'm so worried about her but I'm trying to just relax. I can't believe my baby is growing up!!! :(

poundage!

Happpy Fridayyyyy!!!!

Safeway has a company-wide program going right now called Live Healthy America. We formed teams and set weight loss and activity goals within those teams, and have been working since early May to reach our goals. I started the program weighing in at 132lbs, which is the highest I've ever been not pregnant! My goal was to reach 125lbs by the time the program ends at the end of August.

I am sooo excited to report.... today I weigh in at 121LBS!!!!! yayyyy I'm so happy!! I hope I can keep it off! I've been eating alot better, and have been taking my kids on tons of walks...and it's really paying off. I feel great too! I really hope I stick to it. :)

My new favorite meal....Special K cereal with chocolate in it! MMMMMM Love. ha

What's your favorite healthy BUT delicious food??

Happy Friday everyone!
<3

I hate comcast...

But they are the cheapest cable around. Do I swallow my pride and un-cancel my order???

I do miss The Secret Life and Hannah Montana. Ughhh.

Happy Thursday, almost FRIDAYYYY!!!!!!! :):)

Refreshed!

Yesterday after work, it was Maddie and I on our own. Makenna was with her dad again. So I decided to take Maddie on a little walk. She rode in the stroller because she was super tired and grumpy and didn't really feel like going for a walk. But I couldn't be cooped up in that apartment, so off we went.

We ended up walking for about an hour and a half, down all the main streets in Tracy. I couldn't stop! It felt so good to keep going. We walked by our old house, we walked by friends houses...we just kept going. I had alot of time to think on that walk, and boy did I need that. I thought about everything that's going on in my life, and instead of being sad, for the first time in a long time, I was simply thankful. I felt so lucky to be able to walk that far, to have my daughter with me, to have another babygirl that I'll get to spend time with tonight, to have a tiny but safe little apartment to come home to, to have a second (well maybe third lol) chance. It feels good.

We got home and ate dinner, I gave Mad a bath and put her to bed watching the Jonas Brothers :) And I put in a movie I had rented called Rachel Getting Married. I had never heard of it, but it looked kind of appealing to me in the Redbox rental at work, so I decided to give it a try.

I fell asleep within the first 5 or 10 minutes lol, but I woke up to a scene where Kim, the troubled sister, was at a rehab meeting, and she was repeating that familiar prayer, "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

Oh how that hit my heart! I turned off the movie, said a little prayer, and went to bed happy!

I feel good that I am getting another chance at happiness. That I am ok. That my girls and I are making it through this, and that hopefully we will only be happier in the future. There will be tough times ahead, but oh will there be good amazing wonderful times as well!!! :)

I feel so refreshed :)

Funtastic Fridayyy

First order of business... Can someone teach me how to follow people on here!? LOL I'm blogger challenged. Thanks!

Happy Friday!!!

I'm adjusting to my "new" life I guess I could say. Last night I didn't have my girls, they had daddy time. I also have no cable yet...AND my kenna monster destroyed my laptop! So I couldn't bear the thought of staying home! I went to Target and shopped for the 3 birthdays we are going to this weekend... and then I picked up Taco Bell and ate dinner with one of my bestestes in her break room at work! We talked about some fun summer plans and it made me so excited!

It's so weird to have freedom sometimes now. I dont know what to do with myself! But it's kind of refreshing. I'm so sad when I don't have my girls with me, but all I can do is make the best of it.

So, in a couple weeks I'm going to Sacramento for the weekend! That should be fun. And in October a trip to Vegas!! I'm excited. :)

I'm so blessed. I have amazing friends who will not allow me to stay down! I love them. And my sister and I can make each other laugh no matter whats going on. My daughters can be monsters but gosh I love them so much it hurts sometimes! I really am so very lucky, and I am so blessed to be able to see that again.

Happy Friday!!! Let me in on some Bloggin Wisdom pllllease!!!! :)


"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6